saw you in a dream

I saw you in a dream
You had stayed the same
You were beckoning me
Said that I had changed
Tried to keep my eyes closed
I want you so bad
Then I awoke and it was so sad

Haven’t talked to you in months
And I thought that I might cry
But I’m not that kind of girl

thatbpdshark:

People don’t understand how much it physically hurts when someone with BPD is experiencing abandonment- perceived or otherwise-, it is not just in their head. The physical gnawing ache that ensnares the chest and tears that painfully build up, the excruciating urge to scream and lash out is barely containable. Please don’t leave us, you’re such a big part of our lives and we literally feel as if we’re dying without you.

  • me doing standup: i had an extremely lonely childhood during which i never had a healthy connection with another person and it has caused me to simultaneously crave and reject meaningful relationships

bpdstanpines:

Do u ever wonder what life we be like if you weren’t so fucked up
How outgoing would you be if kids never bullied you in school?
How many accomplishments would you have gotten if you hadnt been depressed from childhood up?
How much better would life be if the universe didnt do everything in its power to hurt you